As a young person, I often searched for a place to fit in, to understand better, who God is and know more about His role in my life. My household was divided as this pertained to spirituality. Paternally, my family were Catholics, and maternally, Anglicans and Puritans. At the wishes of my father I was confirmed a Catholic, but never felt comfortable in this faith. I married into a Baptist faith, where laws took precedence over knowing the Bible. I also conducted personal research on inter-spirituality, and spent a few years learning more about why so many people are drawn to this non-Christian philosophy. My time spent in research, grew my validation that there is only one Godhead-God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit. Nothing can ever change this. 

In my search for Christian meaning, I have always studied reformed theology and the writings of many preachers representing orthodox Christianity. This was important on my mother’s side. Some of these authors are: C.H. Spurgeon, John Bunyan, D.W. Moody, Ada R. Habershon, John Calvin, A.W. Tozer, and many other preachers of the old. In fact, I remember getting to know most of them from the time I began to read and understand what I was reading. 

At this time of my life and beyond this moment, I consider myself to be someone who adheres to Reformed Theology- that is not all Calvinistic- accompanied by an uncomplicated form of the study of Apologetics. The church I attend consistently adheres to teachings grounded in reformed theology led by Biblical truth, the significance of obedience to God, and the need for repentance of my sins.  

I also consider myself to be practical-minded. I confirm that God continues to provide spiritual gifts of Biblical proportions such as administration (my daily work), teachings (those delivered through the elders of the church I attend), mercy, hospitality, wisdom, daily sharing of God’s words as comfort to others, attention to the suffering, and etc. I believe that while God still provide miracles, these miracles come directly from God, in His own time. 

A.W. Tozer said:

“A real Christian is an odd number. He feels supreme love for One whom he has never seen; talks familiarly every day to Someone he cannot see; expects to go to heaven on the virtue of Another; empties himself in order to be filled; admits he is wrong so he can be declared right; goes down in order to get up; is strongest when he is weakest; richest when he is poorest and happiest when he feels the worst. He dies so he can live; forsakes in order to have; gives away so he can keep; sees the invisible; hears the inaudible; and knows that which passes knowledge.”

Here, Tozer is not speaking of any theories outside of the gospel of Jesus Christ and the true foundation of the Trinity. Tozer speaks of humility. Each day, I strive to be the type of Christian Tozer wrote about. In serving God, my family, daily life, and in my work, I am always thankful to God, that He accepts me as His child as I continue to recognize His relentless love for me.